Amanda’s Story

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“The day before our first wedding anniversary my husband ended his life. My life was shattered. My son was what kept me going; being a mother kept me alive. But I suffered from a deep depression and spent many years struggling to provide the very best I could for my son.

By the time my son turned 20 I had been depressed, sad and angry for a long time. Feeling resentful and lonely with feelings of abandonment, I was starting to lose hope for life and it was a struggle to live. I had thought about ending my life for a long time but this time I made a plan to do it. But I had made a promise to a counselor that I would let him know if I wanted to end my life. I had already taken the pills but I remembered this promise and I called him and he connected me to help.

Unfortunately I continued to be in denial and didn’t trust psychiatric help offered to me. I had a nervous breakdown, ended up losing my job and eventually became homeless. And that is when I called the San Diego County Access and Crisis Line and really accepted that I needed help and that I couldn’t do it alone. With the incredible mental health services I received from the County of San Diego I got better, and to this day I continue to work on my recovery on a daily basis. I am now dedicated to helping others. If I had not gone through any of these experiences, I couldn’t share this with others who are hopeless, and to share that there is hope and help.” –Amanda

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